[ he always struggles a bit, articulating himself when it comes to these things. ]
She takes responsibility. She takes responsibility for everything, all the time. The reason she's doing this in the first place is because she felt responsible for Rin, for Haru, for Buzen and Matsui, for me. For the fucking world not ending. She's 12. She's a little girl. She-- [ he feels a little bad, telling her story for her, not sure it's his to share. ] I think maybe she has enough.
So maybe just let her not carry this too. If you need someone to blame, I'll take it. That's my responsibility.
[He listens, and...he really does have a soft spot for kids. It's his one weakness.]
Any team could have done it, so long as one team did all the killing. Why put it on her? Why not pull in a team like Shenhe's, most of them have fighting experience. And they're all adults, and better at handling this kind of pressure.
I understand why you want to protect her, but it feels like you put a lot of pressure on her in the first place.
[ well his expression goes a little ?????? for a second but after a bit. ]
Erm. You know that we didn't plan to both kill on the same week, right? I knew she was thinking about it, but I was really trying to beat her to the punch on it. It was a really fun surprise on Friday for the both of us. I was going to act on my own, because I didn't want to put anything on her?
... Also I realize this paints an ugly picture of my moral fiber and whatnot, but I mostly didn't pull in another team because at the time, we didn't know about reviving other teams and I wanted my team to win? The information on that comes in on Fridays.
[For a moment he looks like he has Things to say about that. But eventually he just sighs.]
If you're looking for some sort of blanket forgiveness for your team's actions, then you're asking the wrong person.
...why ARE you asking me in the first place? It's not like I have any control over how things will go with how severely outvoted I've been, nor am I malicious enough to cause problems for you or your team anyway. I would have expected you to talk to the people you killed instead.
And I certainly don't think you're malicious. I just heard you speaking to the others, about why you were angry with her, and I thought it might be best talk about it. You can be angry, if you want to be.
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[ he always struggles a bit, articulating himself when it comes to these things. ]
She takes responsibility. She takes responsibility for everything, all the time. The reason she's doing this in the first place is because she felt responsible for Rin, for Haru, for Buzen and Matsui, for me. For the fucking world not ending. She's 12. She's a little girl. She-- [ he feels a little bad, telling her story for her, not sure it's his to share. ] I think maybe she has enough.
So maybe just let her not carry this too. If you need someone to blame, I'll take it. That's my responsibility.
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Any team could have done it, so long as one team did all the killing. Why put it on her? Why not pull in a team like Shenhe's, most of them have fighting experience. And they're all adults, and better at handling this kind of pressure.
I understand why you want to protect her, but it feels like you put a lot of pressure on her in the first place.
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Erm. You know that we didn't plan to both kill on the same week, right? I knew she was thinking about it, but I was really trying to beat her to the punch on it. It was a really fun surprise on Friday for the both of us. I was going to act on my own, because I didn't want to put anything on her?
... Also I realize this paints an ugly picture of my moral fiber and whatnot, but I mostly didn't pull in another team because at the time, we didn't know about reviving other teams and I wanted my team to win? The information on that comes in on Fridays.
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If you're looking for some sort of blanket forgiveness for your team's actions, then you're asking the wrong person.
...why ARE you asking me in the first place? It's not like I have any control over how things will go with how severely outvoted I've been, nor am I malicious enough to cause problems for you or your team anyway. I would have expected you to talk to the people you killed instead.
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[ he really doesn't want that, actually. ]
And I certainly don't think you're malicious. I just heard you speaking to the others, about why you were angry with her, and I thought it might be best talk about it. You can be angry, if you want to be.
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What do you want me to say then? My reasonings for why I'm angry? If you heard me speaking to the others, then you probably already heard it.
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I’m not looking for anything, Fukuzawa.