Can I tell you my secret? I think it is not something so terribly embarrassing, but if we've already been humiliated in front of one another. Not so bad?
[ he'd said all that, trying to hype himself up. he'd avoided this secret thing all week for a reason - the only secrets he can think of are either humiliating or ... this. and he wasn't quite sure he was ready to understand this one. but maybe saying it out loud will be better. ]
I think there is obviously a lot of debate about, you know. Prince or Frog. Both. Whatever, something in between the two, but-- there isn't, anymore. Not really. I am a frog. I traded my humanity, my name, to the Baba Yaga.
So that's all done and dusted now. Maybe that's why I'm here? This is just the last ... piece of me that isn't entirely a monster anymore.
[ He thinks about it a bit more, like he's hesitating even though he did offer, but an eye for an eye. He thinks about Ylfa's text and shakes his head. ]
I lost my rights to anything like humanity a long while ago. And the way I hear it, I'm really dead out there -- gone. I'm still gonna try with this damn place, but I just.
[ It eats away at him, like a insect eats a leaf, around the edges and little by little. He shrugs, a little helpless. Well, that's his secret. ]
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No, don't think anyone's walking out of here with a smile.
[ Thinks about Some PeopleTM. ]
A real smile.
Maybe we can all get a bar next week and knock ourselves out at least on Monday to recuperate.
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You did say you would buy me a drink, even though the drinks will likely be free.
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I can be not stingy sometimes.
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[ it's been. a long week. ]
Maybe tomorrow.
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New week, new mindset right?
What's your favourite?
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Can I tell you my secret? I think it is not something so terribly embarrassing, but if we've already been humiliated in front of one another. Not so bad?
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Sure? Promise I won't tell.
[ HELP poor Gerard. Saves him from suffering duncecap on Monday morning. ]
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[ he'd said all that, trying to hype himself up. he'd avoided this secret thing all week for a reason - the only secrets he can think of are either humiliating or ... this. and he wasn't quite sure he was ready to understand this one. but maybe saying it out loud will be better. ]
I think there is obviously a lot of debate about, you know. Prince or Frog. Both. Whatever, something in between the two, but-- there isn't, anymore. Not really. I am a frog. I traded my humanity, my name, to the Baba Yaga.
So that's all done and dusted now. Maybe that's why I'm here? This is just the last ... piece of me that isn't entirely a monster anymore.
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Did you? You seem pretty human to me.
[ Appearances and froggy habits aside, he has always picked through certain attributes and traits that stand out after all. ]
I'd ask you why'd you do that, but I dunno if you'd want to answer. Just as much as I'd ask you if you really think you're a monster.
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I think I am still this way because this part of me has died. And therefore arrived here. You see?
[ he isn't sure he wants to get into all of the reasons, but he doesn't mind so much sharing a little of it. ]
I did it for the right reasons - I hope. And I don't regret it. I would make the same choice again.
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[ Wow, that sure is a thought. And one that while the thought harrows him a little, he doesn't not understand. ]
I hope you don't regret it either. If you've got the right conviction for it then I think it's as good of a decision as any.
[ A moment of thought... and then to add: ]
I don't like leaving things unbalanced. If you want a secret back, I'll give you one.
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[ a bit of a sigh, thinking about it however. ]
... Alright. That seems like a fair trade.
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I lost my rights to anything like humanity a long while ago. And the way I hear it, I'm really dead out there -- gone. I'm still gonna try with this damn place, but I just.
[ It eats away at him, like a insect eats a leaf, around the edges and little by little. He shrugs, a little helpless. Well, that's his secret. ]
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he gets that.
it's harder to try when you know the outcome on the other side. ]
I suppose I don't know the story, and I won't pry, but-- I guess I say the same of you. You seem perfectly human to me.
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That's all.