I just knew. Just like I knew everything else wasn't.
[that's true, amelia seems very undeleted.]
...I know. She came back, fortunately. But even so, everything that happened to her after that, her getting hurt so badly, that happened because of me. And even when I was alone with Rin, finally, he was just - it wasn't good, either. Because all of the bad things were happening because of me. He was drowning and I tried to help him but I couldn't because if I even got near him it was just making everything worse.
[ is that why she doesn't want to be near anyone. ]
I really don't think it was happening because of you. I think it wanted you to feel that way, to hurt you. The place I went to knew about things in my head too, that I hadn't told people before either.
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[that's true, amelia seems very undeleted.]
...I know. She came back, fortunately. But even so, everything that happened to her after that, her getting hurt so badly, that happened because of me. And even when I was alone with Rin, finally, he was just - it wasn't good, either. Because all of the bad things were happening because of me. He was drowning and I tried to help him but I couldn't because if I even got near him it was just making everything worse.
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I really don't think it was happening because of you. I think it wanted you to feel that way, to hurt you. The place I went to knew about things in my head too, that I hadn't told people before either.
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gerard thinking she's afraid of him. like ylfa has any fears about her own bodily autonomy.]
...I don't know, Gerard. It's one thing to say it, and to say that this was probably something Monika felt, but it really - I don't know.