The other teams, even though they lost someone, are still ahead of us. At least, that's what I understand about it.
I don't think there's been any way, since week zero, to win based on swim competitions. The only hope is that we'll win based on something else, but...really, I think we'll probably all get picked at some point to have to do it.
No, probably not. And I doubt we'll have the luck to get away with not making a move. Which of course would even the score again a little, wouldn't it? Everyone has one murder, but also we're very good at swimming.
If we did this, even if we got away with it, the points would reveal us. It is something to consider.
[she'll say what she meant to say in a way that doesn't imply he pathetically tried to impress a tween by telling her he ran a woman over with a car.]
I didn't know you before, so I don't have that much to compare you to. I don't think you were ever "bad." Even when we first met, you were always nice to me.
[that matters so much more to her than courage. the abstract of the woodsman, the hero who will come and save her in the nick of time, is a memory laden with some anger and resentment. she wants to reject the idea of being saved entirely because hoping for it once was so poisonous. it's better to be the one who is strong, who can do the saving, and not have to wait and hope and slowly lose it.
but the feeling of running away, rejected by her own mother as a monster, and finding people who cared enough about her to worry about her feelings about being a monster means something.]
But even just based on that short amount of time, I think... it's obvious how hard you try. And if Elody is the person who you're trying for, I think she's really lucky to have someone like you who cares about her that much.
I don't think I was bad either. I mean, a prince isn't bad. I just wasn't anything, one way or the other.
[ he doesn't even know if he was nice before. he must have been, once. maybe when he was a frog and he had all that time alone in the pond to consider what was nice and what was so terrible that he must have deserved to be frogged, he had figured it out. he was probably nice to Elody, once upon a time, or she never would have given the horrible frog a chance.
but he'd stopped trying so hard for a very long time. ]
I don't know that she's the one I'm trying for. I think I want her to have her own story, her own choices, but I don't think that involves me.
...Yeah. I'm starting to think a lot of the people I thought were good were just people who went through the world without ever having to decide much of anything.
[princes don't usually have many. neither do little girls deciding whether to take the shortest path or to linger in the woods to pick some flowers. the little girl is cute, but there isn't anything particularly consequential about any of that.
that does surprise her, though. and it makes her feel sad, which is probably uncomfortable because he can feel it. what he's saying does sound right, maybe. but even if she's come around on people having their own stories, it's just hard to understand why someone with those choices wouldn't choose to love gerard.]
Well...that's okay, too. You can try for yourself, right?
It's easier to be good when you're written to be that way.
[ he wasn't exactly written to be good, or bad, just a frog. the feeling of understanding that she's sad at the things she's saying is a little awkward at first, but ... he understands. he's sad about it too. ]
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So to win, we would need to kill at least one as well.
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I don't think there's been any way, since week zero, to win based on swim competitions. The only hope is that we'll win based on something else, but...really, I think we'll probably all get picked at some point to have to do it.
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If we did this, even if we got away with it, the points would reveal us. It is something to consider.
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I am hoping for that. It seems less and less likely.
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[she hesitates, but puts a hand on him. her emotions are a bit complicated, but fond.]
I would tell Elody you were brave even if you didn't run over a woman with a car. You are. [maybe that wasn't always true, but he is.]
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I didn't run the woman over with a car! That was Fei Du! I jousted the large metaphorical father on top of the car! It was much cooler than it sounds!
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I would just want her to know that I'm trying to do better.
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[she'll say what she meant to say in a way that doesn't imply he pathetically tried to impress a tween by telling her he ran a woman over with a car.]
I didn't know you before, so I don't have that much to compare you to. I don't think you were ever "bad." Even when we first met, you were always nice to me.
[that matters so much more to her than courage. the abstract of the woodsman, the hero who will come and save her in the nick of time, is a memory laden with some anger and resentment. she wants to reject the idea of being saved entirely because hoping for it once was so poisonous. it's better to be the one who is strong, who can do the saving, and not have to wait and hope and slowly lose it.
but the feeling of running away, rejected by her own mother as a monster, and finding people who cared enough about her to worry about her feelings about being a monster means something.]
But even just based on that short amount of time, I think... it's obvious how hard you try. And if Elody is the person who you're trying for, I think she's really lucky to have someone like you who cares about her that much.
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[ he doesn't even know if he was nice before. he must have been, once. maybe when he was a frog and he had all that time alone in the pond to consider what was nice and what was so terrible that he must have deserved to be frogged, he had figured it out. he was probably nice to Elody, once upon a time, or she never would have given the horrible frog a chance.
but he'd stopped trying so hard for a very long time. ]
I don't know that she's the one I'm trying for. I think I want her to have her own story, her own choices, but I don't think that involves me.
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[princes don't usually have many. neither do little girls deciding whether to take the shortest path or to linger in the woods to pick some flowers. the little girl is cute, but there isn't anything particularly consequential about any of that.
that does surprise her, though. and it makes her feel sad, which is probably uncomfortable because he can feel it. what he's saying does sound right, maybe. but even if she's come around on people having their own stories, it's just hard to understand why someone with those choices wouldn't choose to love gerard.]
Well...that's okay, too. You can try for yourself, right?
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[ he wasn't exactly written to be good, or bad, just a frog. the feeling of understanding that she's sad at the things she's saying is a little awkward at first, but ... he understands. he's sad about it too. ]
I want to.
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[well she is written to be good and also to be big and bad at the same time, so it's a bit complicated.]
Well, I like you how you are already, that's all I mean.
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[ he does
a ribbit. ]
I like you how you are too.
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anyway it's obvious that he likes her but she's still like 😳]
Even though you wouldn't even bite me...
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