[ yeah, that's probably better than going feral alone in the woods. more on the scale of little girl than wolf.
despite all of this, he feels much more human than frog right now. frogs don't care about things like sad children, and lives cut short. ]
You cannot blame yourself. Terrible things happen, sometimes. We've all seen that by now-- and, I don't know. We have to see it through. We have no choice but to find some good in it. We still need to be there for Haru.
[she wants to be a wolf right now. let the little girl fade away, become a creature that doesn't know how to feel sad and helpless. it's easier to sit with boiling anger and a despite to hurt and kill than it is to sit with the sorts of feelings a little girl might have when a boy who was very kind to her and made her feel wanted is taken away.
but the big bad wolf is the one who decides which children are eaten and which are spared. that's how it's supposed to be, the benefit of becoming something inhuman and hungry is the power to decide when not to eat.
if that's not the power she has, then she's nothing more than a little girl who happens to be furry and unsettling and happens to have done some terrible things.]
[ at this point, he'll sit up and move over to sit next to her, putting an arm around her shoulders.
but she's right. it's too difficult to find any sort of meaning or good in this at the moment. at least for right now. this is no place for a prince or princess. ]
I can't say what it is yet, myself. But we can't let it consume us just yet. We've come too far for that.
[she would in fact like a hug and is no longer so concerned that she's going to perhaps murder him in a rage, so she will allow this, leaning her head against his chest.]
[she wouldn't have minded a cold slimy hug either. it's just nice to be cared about, even when you're being a little feral and also a little helpless and sad.]
I'm a little afraid to find out which person here is only pretending.
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I don't think there's much we can do to plan for such things. It will happen, or it won't.
You're upset about Rin.
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I don't know why - why things like this have to - I thought I could -
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I know. At least once, things could go right.
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I wanted to keep him safe. I - if I can't do that, then... then what good was any of this, Gerard?
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despite all of this, he feels much more human than frog right now. frogs don't care about things like sad children, and lives cut short. ]
You cannot blame yourself. Terrible things happen, sometimes. We've all seen that by now-- and, I don't know. We have to see it through. We have no choice but to find some good in it. We still need to be there for Haru.
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but the big bad wolf is the one who decides which children are eaten and which are spared. that's how it's supposed to be, the benefit of becoming something inhuman and hungry is the power to decide when not to eat.
if that's not the power she has, then she's nothing more than a little girl who happens to be furry and unsettling and happens to have done some terrible things.]
I don't know that I can see any good in this.
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but she's right. it's too difficult to find any sort of meaning or good in this at the moment. at least for right now. this is no place for a prince or princess. ]
I can't say what it is yet, myself. But we can't let it consume us just yet. We've come too far for that.
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...Okay. We'll just have to see what it is.
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I think it has hurt a great many people. Maybe there's a comfort in that. We aren't alone.
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I'm a little afraid to find out which person here is only pretending.
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I understand.
... There are a few who have been fairly honest about their beliefs. I think we look to them first.
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