... I don't think I can judge any failure to act. For a long time in my life, I did nothing as well. Stood by and let others do the work, take on the difficult and the terrifying work while I pretended it wasn't anything I needed to be concerned with. It's why I'm-- like this, in the end.
So, it sounds to me as if you tried. That is all anyone can ask.
[he looks so torn still - so upset at the idea of gerard not chewing him out. but he'll look up at that, worried and confused.]
... Ge-san, I don't...
[he'll reach out to touch gerard - slowly, like he's not sure, and giving gerard the option to pull away if he doesn't want a hand on his shoulder]
... Are you sure? I really feel like - I'd understand, if you want to be angry. I know how much you care about your team. I know that they're kids in your care.
Of course I'm angry. I'm-- So very angry. But not at you. Why bother? I suppose I'm angry with this place. With myself, for not catching onto it sooner. I'm a fool.
[ he doesn't exactly mind the hand but he's not entirely sure about it either, so he doesn't react much to it either way. ]
I think-- I guess I just think it should have been someone else here. Any of the others would have figured out something by now, I'm sure. Timothy or Rosamund would look out for them, Pinocchio and Pib are more clever by half.
... Elody is stronger and braver by far. But she's not here. So I'm the best they've got, and it's not very good.
[oh. his expression softens - and he nods, in understanding]
.... Kotegiri would've figured out a better way to say it. Matsu too, if he wasn't so hurt because of Thursday. All the other Gous are way smarter than me, and a ton more clever. I don't wish they were here, but I wish I picked up more from them.
But I don't think you're a fool, Ge-san. I think that you worked really hard, and investigated a lot of things for the people that you care about. And even if you think that what you didn't wasn't very good...
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So, it sounds to me as if you tried. That is all anyone can ask.
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... Ge-san, I don't...
[he'll reach out to touch gerard - slowly, like he's not sure, and giving gerard the option to pull away if he doesn't want a hand on his shoulder]
... Are you sure? I really feel like - I'd understand, if you want to be angry. I know how much you care about your team. I know that they're kids in your care.
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[ he doesn't exactly mind the hand but he's not entirely sure about it either, so he doesn't react much to it either way. ]
I think-- I guess I just think it should have been someone else here. Any of the others would have figured out something by now, I'm sure. Timothy or Rosamund would look out for them, Pinocchio and Pib are more clever by half.
... Elody is stronger and braver by far. But she's not here. So I'm the best they've got, and it's not very good.
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.... Kotegiri would've figured out a better way to say it. Matsu too, if he wasn't so hurt because of Thursday. All the other Gous are way smarter than me, and a ton more clever. I don't wish they were here, but I wish I picked up more from them.
But I don't think you're a fool, Ge-san. I think that you worked really hard, and investigated a lot of things for the people that you care about. And even if you think that what you didn't wasn't very good...
I think sometimes, you're still what we need.