[ funnily he kind of does doesn't he? it's almost like everyone basically saw the memory where he killed the fairy godmother that actually laid the curse on him. so maybe that magic isn't quite as binding as he'd like to believe. that he actively turns more froglike when he imagines himself to be, so the reverse might be true enough as well.
he actually does a sort of laugh at both of those statements - not like meanly. just kind of amused at his own constant shitfit about being a frog, and the idea that he could possibly look any different. but kind of defensively:]
I really was just as handsome as you or Matsui, you know. [ i dont know about THAT. fairytale handsome is different from sword handsome, but ] ... I don't actually hate it. Or, I do. It's -- every day I wake up, and get to see the proof that I fucked up. I ruined true love and I'm still unworthy of it. And it's hard not to see that and hate myself, this form, knowing what it means.
But I think it's made me a better person? I'm stronger. Physically and all. [ a bit of a dark laugh. ] People asked how anyone could possibly beat Shenhe in a fight, and I can tell you that as a Prince I wouldn't have been able to make it three seconds against her. I wouldn't have survived this long without it. And it makes me try harder. People treat you very differently when you're handsome and when you look like a monster. Or I guess see you for what you say, what you do, without the idea that if you're a handsome prince you must surely be good on some level. So, um, in a lot of ways, I wouldn't be who I am without it. I don't like myself a great deal, but at least I know myself now. I don't think I knew him at all, before I started turning back, because I didn't want to. I didn't want to think about it all ever again.
[ `Maybe you were just aware that no matter what you did for the rest of your life, the story people were going to tell about you was that there was a period of years where you were a frog.`
anyway the thing about memshare week (memshare week forever!!!!) is that he doesn't have to ask about his life story if he wants a lil tasty memory snack.]
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he actually does a sort of laugh at both of those statements - not like meanly. just kind of amused at his own constant shitfit about being a frog, and the idea that he could possibly look any different. but kind of defensively:]
I really was just as handsome as you or Matsui, you know. [ i dont know about THAT. fairytale handsome is different from sword handsome, but ] ... I don't actually hate it. Or, I do. It's -- every day I wake up, and get to see the proof that I fucked up. I ruined true love and I'm still unworthy of it. And it's hard not to see that and hate myself, this form, knowing what it means.
But I think it's made me a better person? I'm stronger. Physically and all. [ a bit of a dark laugh. ] People asked how anyone could possibly beat Shenhe in a fight, and I can tell you that as a Prince I wouldn't have been able to make it three seconds against her. I wouldn't have survived this long without it. And it makes me try harder. People treat you very differently when you're handsome and when you look like a monster. Or I guess see you for what you say, what you do, without the idea that if you're a handsome prince you must surely be good on some level. So, um, in a lot of ways, I wouldn't be who I am without it. I don't like myself a great deal, but at least I know myself now. I don't think I knew him at all, before I started turning back, because I didn't want to. I didn't want to think about it all ever again.
[ `Maybe you were just aware that no matter what you did for the rest of your life, the story people were going to tell about you was that there was a period of years where you were a frog.`
anyway the thing about memshare week (memshare week forever!!!!) is that he doesn't have to ask about his life story if he wants a lil tasty memory snack.]